Teens & Their Sewing Dreams

Today hasn’t really been my best day.  Our oldest and I selected a pile of patterns a while back, and I’m working on whipping up a vest for her in anticipation of her big 80s-themed birthday party this weekend.  “Whipped” being a bit of an over-statement, since such a project isn’t exactly a quickie.  And with a Saturday deadline looming, I’m feeling the pressure.  And now, at the eleventh hour, she doesn’t like the fabrics, and we don’t have the right lining, and I’m getting a little frustrated.

And then I snapped.  It really was the culmination of a series of comments, not one in particular, but this time it really got to me.  I felt so incredibly frustrated that she was looking at this project like magic, as if I can snap my fingers and make a vest appear in a poof of smoke.  Poof!  She has these elaborate—oh, so so so so elaborate–visions of how she’s Going To Look and What the Kids Will Think that it wears me down.

So as I’m sitting, splitting my time between fuming at her attitude and feeling guilty for my reaction, I realize: I was the exact same way.  And the worst episode, heaven help us, was over a vest.  A vest made of fabric in a cow pasture print.  It was 1992.  I say that by way of defense, rather than explanation because: cow pasture fabric.  My mother was working on a vest for me, which I had asked her to make.  And the entire time she was sewing, I was fantasizing, picturing myself in my head and How I Would Look when I wore this miracle vest (please: 1992, remember).

And then I tried it on.  The shoulders were quite broad, as are my own, and looked strikingly reminiscent of shoulder pads.  On a linebacker.  My bustline, which has never been wallflower-shy, dictated that we make a larger size, which made my waist look like it was bigger than…well, bigger than an 18-year-old wants it to be.  I shrieked, I stomped, I cried, and I shouted.  I was so hurt and upset and disappointed and felt so unattractive that I moped and took out my sadness all over my mother–the woman who, keep in mind, had done ALL THE WORK to make this vest of questionable taste as per my request.

Now here I am, back there all over again.  But on the other side.

I’m thinking two things now:

  1. It’s hard to be the one who makes things for others, since there is always the pressure to live up to their expectations.  What if what I sew for my child isn’t what she imagined for herself?  Will I have wasted my time?  Will she be scarred forever?  Will I have contributed to some secret cache of insecurity that I didn’t know she had, unwittingly feeding it and making her years ahead bleaker as a result?  Will she even wear this thing that I’ve labored over on her behalf?
  2. So many of us do the EXACT SAME THING to ourselves when we sew.  We expect to complete each project and have it work the same as if we had walked into a shop and tried on something off the rack.  We imagine that it will be flawless, and forget that those store-bought pieces went through piles of pattern testing before being mass-produced–and sometimes even then they don’t fit us properly! We’re so accustomed to trying on our usual size and having the freedom to say, “Huh.  I guess I need to go up/down a size.  Weird.” that we forget we can do the same thing when we’ve made a garment–just not as easily.  We kick ourselves and cry, “Failure!” when it is the pattern that is the problem, not us.

How many of us have given up or back-burnered a sewing project–or GASP! quit sewing altogether because of a failed garment, or one that was less than perfect?  How many of us have expected to see a finished project come off the machine and be flawless the first time, and fit us spectacularly, and waltz out the door with a breezy attitude?  Most, I assume.  Me included.

Sewing clothes can take time.  Not just time to make the garment, but time to get each one to fit the way we’d like.  Does that mean that you must slave for years to get it right?  NO, NO, NO!  It does mean that we serve ourselves best when we don’t imagine that the project we’re making will raise us up to the level of Cindy Crawford (again: 1992), but rather that each project is one step forward as we learn what we like, what we want, what we hope, and how to make the fabric and the thread all work together to get us there.  I’m having to take a breath today and explain that to my child, and remember it all over again myself.

The cow pasture vest?  My mom, bless her, took in the shoulder line and added ties at the back to bring in the waist, and it was totally wearable.  It was never what I pictured it would be–probably because in my head I had a bustline that was two cup sizes smaller and a waist that was the size of a Barbie doll.  Somewhere between learning what flatters my figure and learning to push my skills with each garment (while allowing for imperfections and flubs along the way), I learned that every project we sew is an adventure and a chance to grow and get closer to making the dreams we dream.

And: that cow pasture prints never, ever belong on clothing.

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  • Kay Stephenson
    August 5, 2010 at 5:11 pm

    By the time I left junior high school, my Mom had taught me to sew and was happy to stand back and answer questions only when asked. It gave me the freedom to create to my hearts content and to improve my sewing skills and learn what worked on me. It gave her the freedom to do something other than trying to please an ungrateful teen. By the time I was job hunting after college, I was making tailored suits for myself. Maybe it’s time to get her started.

  • Shannon
    August 5, 2010 at 5:19 pm

    Oh, I remember those sewing blowouts…I actually think my worst one was with my big sister, not my mother. I got more frustrated at what I was doing not being perfect than anything else, and it turned me off to sewing for a very long time. I’m just now getting to where I feel confident enough to take on new projects with the right attitude!

  • dana
    August 6, 2010 at 1:48 am

    oh MAN.
    Love love loved this post deborah. Not even sure where to start. You said it all perfectly. And I couldn’t agree more…..cow pasture prints should never be on clothing, no matter what age you are.

  • Lorene
    August 6, 2010 at 9:21 am

    Wow. Thanks for posting this. It is so nice that you took the time to articulate something I, too, have experienced.

  • Amanda Hall
    August 6, 2010 at 9:56 am

    Been there, done that. And it is great to know that I am not some freak of nature and that other people actually feel the same way I do, sometimes. So now, I can feel justified when I throw my ruler or pincushion across the room because things aren’t going my way 🙂

  • Maggie
    August 6, 2010 at 11:51 am

    The last time my mother sewed for me was my sophomore year of high school – and a homecoming dress. I still remember the fights and the tears over that GORGEOUS garment. It was far too low-cut for me, and I ended up wearing a cardigan all night long.

    I’ve been unable to sew for anyone else, for fear that something similar will happen.

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    August 12, 2010 at 1:18 pm

    <3 I was so touched by this post that I sent it to my mom. <3